Surgery

I guess I was in denial about surgery.

I got a call informing me of my surgery schedule and a few moments after hanging up I had a minor panic attack. Unfortunately, I keep having them. I have had surgery before without worry, so why am I panicking now? Our lives are in such upheaval, I wonder if I am just reacting to an additional unknown outcome.

I really want to put this all in the past and move on, so I am trying to face everything head on and deal with it as soon as possible. Who knows if it's working; I'll find out when I realize I am in denial again.